Monday, January 21, 2008

Updates

I'm not really sure how many people still actually come to Aidan's blog, but if you do here is a little update on what we have been up to.

December was a pretty rough month. We were so looking forward to Christmas with a new baby. While out Christmas shopping we bought some presents that we would have bought for Aidan but instead donated them to families who for one reason or another might not have been able to have a Christmas morning. We also bought Aidan a little Christmas tree that is still up lol. We decorated it with glittering snowflakes and angel ornaments. We spent the holidays with our families even though all we really wanted to do was curl up in a ball and forget they were even happening. Our motto for the coming new year was, "well it could only get better"

With January swiftly approaching we were looking forward to, yet dreading our flight out to Minnesota. We figured this month would be a great time to finally start going to the Share Meetings. Share is a support group for families that have lost children. One good moment was when a person at the meeting said that yes we could stay in our beds and cry all day but is that what our child would want us to be doing? I thought that was a great way to look at things: What would Aidan want us to be doing? He was such a happy baby (as long as he was getting all the attention lol) would he really want us to be so sad?
Being back in Minnesota was bittersweet. It was so familiar, it was like a second home because we have such great memories from the week that we had Aidan at the Ronald McDonald House and it felt like we really hadn't been gone that long, even though it had been four months. Wow four months, I can't believe it has been that long. But at the same time we knew we left with horrible last memories. I swore I never wanted to come back to the state. Entering the hospital, knowing that it would be the first time going there when we wouldn't be visiting Aidan was tough. After meeting with the hospital we got no more answers than we came with. We will forever never fully understand why Aidan has gone onto Heaven or what happened. After the meeting we were allowed to go back to the PICU and see if there were any nurses there that we wanted to say hello to. Walking past the room that Aidan had spent over a month in, I blew him a kiss and put it where the picture of him used to be outside the door. The child that was in his cubicle of the room was a child that had been there while Aidan was and he was going to be getting ready to go home soon. None of our "favorite nurses" were on shift during the time, but there were so many familiar faces. We didn't get to do a whole lot of walking around the campus because of the weather, although if you asked anyone who lived in Minnesota they would say that we were there during a heat wave; one of the news casters was actually outside with no jacket on! lol.

Something to look forward to is: in the middle of February we will be going to Disneyland for a few days. We are going to be taking some of Aidan's ashes with us so that he can be there with us. Currently i'm trying to do some research to find the perfect spot for us to sprinkle some ashes while we are there. Anyone who has been there and can offer a suggestion it would be greatly appreciated although i'm sure Mike and I will find the perfect spot while we are there and just know that its THE SPOT. hehe. That's all for now

11 comments:

Taryn said...

I read your blog :) I miss Aidan too...but he's a guardian angel for very special little people!!

Anonymous said...

me to i love but write more please

Anonymous said...

pealse i look at it every day but i see the same thing

Anonymous said...

We're still here with both of you so please continue to share updates. You'll find the right spot at Disneyland because Aidan will guide you there.... and it will be perfect.

Anonymous said...

I come and check on you guys once a week my prayers will always be with you. I hope you the besty in Disney I know you'll fin the perfect spot
Pascale

theshawn said...

I wish we could have seen you guys when you were in MN...since we are STILL here. We definitely miss you all.

Jades & Luthecio (Lightning's Blade) said...

Hi to you both :)

I come and check the blog once in a while. Like I already said, I think you're the most courageous parents in the world. I bet Aidan is very proud of you both and of all the good actions you do in his name. Buying gifts for the little childrens was a good idea, I bet it made them VERY happy. Keep us updated.

laura said...

shawn, i thought you guys had already left and gone home. I've been trying to see how Trent is doing, but didn't know his carepage name and you havent updated your site in awhile lol. you are out of the hospital right? let me know how everything is going.

Laura

Rebecca said...

we love you guys!

keycheck said...

I just wanted to tell you a gift Aiden sent me. As you know I have been sick for a while, on Feb. 11, I went for an MRI at the hospital, as it turned out I was unable to do it because I got very anxious and I felt that I couldn't breath. I was feeling pretty bad because I felt that I wasted everybodies time. We got in the parking lot elevator and before the door closes a couple with a little boy got in, as soon as the baby saw me, he started to smile at me and he wouldn't stop. I asked the mother how old he was, she said he was under a year and then she said his name was Aiden. I felt that I wasn't alone, Aiden was there with me . I missed him a lot. Love you guys. Esmeralda

Anonymous said...

I believe it was Aidan who tugged on your pants....check out John Edwards. Sending positive vibes your way.....